To do, or not to do
To do, or not to do
If you ask me on a Wednesday what topic I am
going to write about that week, most of the times, I am not able to tell. Except
the travel-related posts, it is very rare that I am certain what would finally
appear on Saturday.
Dozens of topics/issues catch my attention,
compelling me to share my thoughts with you; yet I write about only one a week.
It gets difficult to decide the subject. Making the decision takes me a long
time. Sometimes I might nearly complete something, and then decide that the
time/topic/material is not appropriate or opportune and change or rewrite.
Others call this ‘indecision’ and label me as ‘indecisive’.
The dictionary meaning of the word ‘indecisive’
is ‘not able to make decisions quickly or effectively’.
Forget the big issues with long term effects,
like choosing a career/job/apartment/car/life partner, or ending a
relationship, retiring from work, changing jobs, even less significant matters
take people like me a long time to decide.
I have stared at my phone long before deciding if
this is the right time to call somebody or nod my head in a ‘nah’. I take
time to zero in on whether to do something myself or give it to others, where
to go to eat, what to order, appropriate gifts, which book to read/film to
watch, and scores of other matters. Even if it is somebody else, I think
awhile, in no urgency to hasten the conclusion.
If they relish the firewater, they might first
weigh the choices, cock their heads to look at the labels, ask, taste a sip
before finalising on soda/ice/water/neat.
Right from the moment we wake up to the time we
call it a day, our time is filled with decisions, big or small, concerned with
us or the people or surroundings we live in. Making several thousand decisions
in one lifetime? Surely, that is a lot of responsibility for a human!
Concerned at my inability to decide quickly,
friends and family have often tried to hustle and hassle when I am torn between
two or more options or sides of an issue.
They would very kindly advise that I sharpen my
skill of decision-making and advocate strategies to ‘tame the indecision
monster’.
There are others who turn amateur psychologists and psychiatrists and spit their (uneducated) analysis on the whys of my spending time and energy on small decisions. They call it overthinking, fear of responsibility, lack of willpower/clarity of mind/passion. One Google doctor had the nerve to diagnose it as fear/anxiety/OCD, even aboulomania. These people depart from the scene, again leaving my thoughts flying to and fro like a shuttlecock in badminton whether they are well-wishers or I should avoid meeting them in future.
Worse are those who pronounce the judgement
that women are indecisive; spend hours trying to decide what to cook of the
three things in the fridge, lay sarees/salwar kurtas out on the bed
trying to select one that looks good, yet is comfortable.
Have all the spontaneous, risky decisions by seemingly
clear-headed men brought positive results?
The blessing that indecision is
Has anyone considered the positive side of
being indecisive?
Being indecisive opens my mind to new information, allows me the adventure of exploring alternatives, possibilities available, search and analyse all aspects/contingencies.
The indecisiveness over which pattern to follow in needlework lets me dive into the deep ocean of beautiful creations. Of course, there have been times when I have unravelled or changed a whole project but doesn’t that give me double pleasure? And do I ever complain that I find it tough to pass time?
I save money shopping online because undecided what to click on as I scroll through hundreds of items to select what I absolutely must have, I give up.
I resort to making elaborate charts and tables
to weigh the pros and cons when making big decisions, like looking for an alternative
apartment when some imminent issues in our residential complex seemed to make
living here unimaginable.
The battle in my head helps me make what I like
to believe, is an informed decision.
Sometimes, I end up deciding nothing. Other
times, during the delay, time and circumstances make that decision for me.
What is the point of being cocksure of things
and deciding them like a Dracula ant's attack?
Seen those people who with a remote in hand,
scroll and surf through channels stopping only a milli-second, undecided when
to finally stop to watch something? They are the most knowledgeable about everything
being telecast and source of envy to others at get-togethers.
If you look up to successful people for
guidance, Amazon founder Jeff Bezo advises not to take any decision until you
have 70 per cent information. Before rushing out of the house on a cloudy day,
don’t you too look out the window, the weather forecast?
I am told successful politicians are aggressively
decision-oriented people. But it is the voter in me whose mind whirrs like a
food processor trying to reason who can best represent our interests. With no
clear political preferences, the search is for information and confidence to
know who will represent us properly. Alas, I am a minority!
Being indecisive is unselfish. It gives others
an opportunity to be involved, to participate, think, guess, advise, sometimes second
guess their own decisions.
Ophelia Deroy, professor
of Philosophy of Mind at Ludwig Maximilian University, Munich says what makes
humans smart is our capacity to be undecided.
What do you think is the concept of meetings
and brainstorming sessions based on? If it was not for indecision, the top
person would decide everything and the stick would rule.
Need I mention that the concept of democracy
lives because of this indecisiveness or you want to live in one autocracy on
the whole planet?
Come to think of it, the Bhagwad Gita, the word
of Lord Krishna Himself, was the result of the ethical dilemma that Arjuna
faced.
Even if my decision does not get me a
favourable/advantageous outcome, I have the satisfaction that I thought it
through.
Naturally, I am not trying to overcome this excellent
habit any time soon. I suggest that you too try to curb that urge to immediately
opt for a yes or no to matters pending decision. Reflect, reason, contemplate,
ponder, ruminate; there is no hurry, every decision is not a matter of life or
death.
Shun the boring people who plunge right in deciding
with a snap of fingers, and thus, robbing every one of the mental gymnastics so
important for keeping our grey cells active. We are blessed to be afforded
options.
-Anupama S Mani
That's a great piece of writing.. Identified with lots of things mentioned here. Enjoyed it thoroughly.
ReplyDeleteYou are indeed a gifted writer! Both, Sudhanshu and you are actually gifts for all of us!
ReplyDeleteThis piece is a wonderful one which I relate to very well!
Indeed a great piece of writing
ReplyDeleteGreat writeup
ReplyDeleteAlways Great Sir
ReplyDeleteDear Anupama,
ReplyDeleteIn the song sung by Louis Jourdan and Maurice Chevalier(hope I've got the spellings correct)in the film GiGi,
Maurice suggests and Louis rejects...
"the leaning tower I adore..."
"indecision is a bore.."
Thanks for your incisive blog.All of us have at one time or another,faced similar situations.You are certainly not alone!
So relatable topic. You have a flair for narration. 💫
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